cold

lonely tonight.
i got back from work, popped a bag of popcorn, and sat on the deck w my laptop.
and then i got up and walked back to elwood's.
was back there for maybe 45 minutes.

i'm glad i have off tomorrow.  i'm ready for a day off.
mom wants me to go back there for sunday dinner.
i guess i will, but i have no desire too.
none.
i should spend more time w her, but i don't want to.
i suppose it's my own fault i'm lonely.  after all, i could be friends w mom.  i could spend time w her.
i guess i'm just too cold.